World Aids Day

Today is World Aids Day.
Sam want to get an HIV test with me.
I refused.
I lied him that I don't like needles.
The only needle I want is whenever I shoot up the drugs in my arm.
Sadly, I'm already HIV +.
I haven't told him yet.
I will keep quite about HIV status.
I promised myself I will never tell Sam at all.
Before Sam, my last boyfriend found out I am HIV +.
Mike was very angry that I kept it from him.
We had unsafe sex many times.
I put Mike's life at risk.
The same day, he broke up with me.
I don't want the same thing happen with Sam.
I'm afraid Sam will leave me too.
He doesn't know about my drug problem either.
I know in my heart that Sam will leave me of the HIV and the drugs.
I don't want to lose Sam.
I love him so much.
Sam means the world to me.
I won't tell him no matter what.

Cucumber, pickle & penis

There was a cucumber, a pickle, and a penis sitting around talking about how their lives sucked.
The cucumber says "Man, my life sucks. When I get big, fat, and juicy, they cut me up and stick me on a salad."
The pickle looks at him and says, "You think you have it bad? When I get big, fat, and juicy, they stick me in vinegar, put spices on me, and stick me in a jar."
The penis looks at him and says, "You think you have it rough? When I get big, fat, and juicy, they stick a plastic bag over my head, stick me in a dark room, and bang my head against the wall until I throw up all over myself and pass out!"

This is my decision, my choice and my life.

This is my decision, my choice and my life.

I am dying.

I don't believe in God.

I don't want to take my life in my own hands.

I don't want to end up like a veggie.

I had a choice.

Live or die.

I choose the latter.

I would rather die than live with the illness.

suicide isn't a option either.

suicide isn't me whatsoever.

I'm against suicide.

someone else ought to kill me.

no one can change my mind about the murder.

that is a much better plan.

I'm sick and tired of living with the illness.

it's time to put me out of my misery.

no matter what happen.

I am not long for this world.

any moment now, death is among me.

time have come to end my life for once and for all.