World Aids Day

Today is World Aids Day.
Sam want to get an HIV test with me.
I refused.
I lied him that I don't like needles.
The only needle I want is whenever I shoot up the drugs in my arm.
Sadly, I'm already HIV +.
I haven't told him yet.
I will keep quite about HIV status.
I promised myself I will never tell Sam at all.
Before Sam, my last boyfriend found out I am HIV +.
Mike was very angry that I kept it from him.
We had unsafe sex many times.
I put Mike's life at risk.
The same day, he broke up with me.
I don't want the same thing happen with Sam.
I'm afraid Sam will leave me too.
He doesn't know about my drug problem either.
I know in my heart that Sam will leave me of the HIV and the drugs.
I don't want to lose Sam.
I love him so much.
Sam means the world to me.
I won't tell him no matter what.